why

yo i really hate being called predictable so why would u do that

also my mom can stop like i’m almost 16 i’m pretty sure i don’t need u to hover around my stairs waiting for me to go to sleep

and my friends were very wonderful today i’m really glad

but really i’m pissed

today right after i got to school i ran into one of my freshman friends and she wasn’t crying but i offered her a hug because everybody needs support

and she burst into tears

it was one of the most heartbreaking things ever like she’s one of my favorite people and all i could do was let her cry on me

i can’t even believe that someone could be gone this quickly

like just last night while my friends and i were laughing hysterically over making jokes about alcohol (literally at the same exact time) this junior died in a car crash

i smiled at him in the hall yesterday and it isn’t even a grand gesture but i can’t even comprehend that he’s gone

i will never see him again

and it’s times like these that remind me how lucky i am to have stayed in a community so full of love and support like my school

i’m also really sick of the exclusion and the cattiness like everyone just needs to shut up and be upfront about things

i’m getting really really fed up with you because if you want to jeopardize friendships by seeking notes and followers only then it isn’t my problem but every time you post another pretentious selfie like the last god-knows-how-many i want to punch you in the face

whatever

i had a really shitty day and of course when it might have gotten better it had to be ruined like i never cry and now two days in a row there have been tears cool

i can’t stop crying like the exchange students gave their goodbye speeches today and the girl from south africa is one of the most amazing people i have ever met and i tell her everything and i literally can’t handle the fact that she’s leaving i’m falling apart

i’m upset for little reasons

i’m not trying to be the stereotypical “short and sweet” speaker

but literally can you fucking not